Saturday, February 7, 2009
We each have a personal responsibility to dig deeper into our psyches and make an inner shift and begin to truly "see" our place in the larger scheme of things. I have long said, " If we are not here by accident, we must be here ON PURPOSE"! I believe in rolling up our sleeves and doing both the inner work and the outer work at the same time. If we wait until we are totally whole and healed to enter into the world and be fruitful we may find that our lives will remain barren and the gifts we already possess will sit useless in the corner of our souls.
Grandma Twylah my Wolfie Gramma, used to say any time I asked her what she was up to the following words, " I am kicking butt and frying bacon". The point being, she was always out there doing the "work" , teaching, supporting, helping others and shape shifting the planetary consciousness. There is a time to do the work of the "I" and then there is the time to do the work of the "Thy". In other words, we must begin by knowing who we really are and dismantling the old foundations, but it is important to remember while we are coming apart at the foundation of our old self that we must rebuild our lives and find a sacred purpose or all will be for naught. The taking apart is so that we can come back together in an even higher form than before. Real change is not about reformation, but transformation.
Any crisis that we see in the world, no matter how horrible, is a sign that what ever we have been doing is no longer working. This applies to relationships we have with people, places or things. The awakening that happens when we realize that we are living in a non truth is meant to give us the courage to find our way through the portals of shamanic initiation. Initiation is a type of death and rebirth experience moving us to the next level of awareness that is beckoning us ever forward. "Death to caterpillar is birth to the butterfly".
I am not advocating being fickle with relationships or situations, but there is nothing particularly honorable about holding onto that which has outgrown itself in our lives and has come to an end. Everyone and every event that happens in our life is sacred. We can really see this if we open up to the deeper understanding and bigger picture that is right behind our egos perception. Once we honor and integrate the lessons learned from our experiences it is time to share their lessons in meaningful ways with those who magically show up and need what we have to share.
The spiral path of transformation will bring many things to us and then take them away, like the powerful waves of an ocean moving constantly back and forth upon the earth. I have learned to love who and what I love passionately, but not to hold on too tightly and maybe more importantly not to let what I love to prevent me from being who I am or doing what I feel called to do in the world.
Our world is in chaos, perhaps it has always been so. However this is my time and yours to recognize, sort out and let go of that which is obstructing the larger view needed which is needed in order to take the quantum leap to our bigger selves. I am ready to do my part, how about you? Together we can move through the portals of change and celebrate the fruits of our labor with, as the Native American wisdom says, "All My Relations". Nietzsche said, "One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star". If you are sitting on the sidelines, would you like to dance?
Dancing on the Spiral Path of Change,
Friday, February 6, 2009
Grandmother Twylah Nitsch, Wolf Clan Grandmother of the Seneca Tribe, teacher and mentor to Venus Rising founder and co-director, Star Wolf, passed into the other world on August 21, 2007 at 7:12 am EDT. Following is a letter from Star Wolf, written a few days after Grandma Twylah's passing about the magical events of that day, while Star Wolf was co-facilitating a Venus Rising 8-day healing and training intensive in Portland, OR.
Dear Soul Family and Friends of Venus Rising and the Isis Cove Community:
My heartfelt thoughts and prayers are with you and all those who know and love Grandma Twylah. As you might guess, Gram has visited me many times over the last few days and nights, filling me with many teachings while also activating my heart and soul with her humor, grace, dignity, love and wisdom.
She has brought me tears of grief and joy over and over again with her shining presence. Everyone here at Still Meadows Retreat Center has felt her presence and many have received messages from Gram. She came to some people through the Shamanic Breathwork ™ Process experienced on the morning of her passing and to others through dreams and visions.
I must share with you some of the magic that occurred on the morning of her passing. Around 4 am west coast time I awoke with a start and began to vibrate as if electricity was running through my body. I had the distinct feeling that someone or something was calling me to go outside and walk down a path in the forest to visit the two 900 year old Douglas Fir trees (one is a Grandmother and the other a Grandfather) here in this sacred forest. Over 70 acres of natural land, creek and forest have been preserved by the Emissaries of Light at the Still Meadows Retreat Center near the Clackamas River. As is known by my friends, I am not typically a morning person so I decided to wait until the rain slowed down and it became light enough for me to make my way into the woods without getting lost.
Around 6 am I began to walk to these trees that stand at least 70 feet tall while a gentle rain fell. I was overcome with a profound sadness that I could not explain. It was as if everything I had ever felt sad about came up to meet me on my walk to the trees; all the losses of my life were palpably present. I felt sadness about my aging mother and father and my father's failing health. I felt sadness that someday my beloved husband and I would be physically parted from each other by death. I felt sadness that I could not protect my son and my grandchildren from the pain and suffering of their trials and tribulations. Then I felt the grief of knowing that I am only one person doing what I can to stay awake and assist the people of the world to open their own hearts to deeper healing, wisdom and love, hoping that it is not too late to restore balance to our beloved planet. All of this was filling up my being as I walked to the great old ones who stand so nobly on this sacred land.
When I arrived at the trees, I first went to the one that had told me that she was the Grandmother of the forest and I wept deeply. As the tears streamed down my face, I felt myself being emptied of all the grief that had filled me as I had walked to the old ones. I cried until I felt not only empty but wholly cleansed. I then flashed on Grandmother Twylah and my own maternal Grandmother Callie, two of the most important and influential people of my life. I felt their loving presence guiding me. I then walked a few feet away to the other gentle giant who had made me aware that he was the Grandfather and partner to the Grandmother tree. I found myself saying aloud, "Please, Great Ones, help me to stand tall and strong with dignity, speaking my truth, living with integrity, sharing what I have learned and my gifts with the world in a good way. Help me to weather the storms of life as you have, and to grow upright reaching to the stars and putting down strong roots to both nourish my life and soul as well as the lives of those around me. Help me to keep my heart open, alive and awake, and to renew it over and over again, never becoming stagnant or dulled with my own complacency. Help me to not be overwhelmed with the negativity of what may be occurring in the world around me."
I felt an amazing vibration of renewed energy pouring through my heart center and knew I was being initiated and healed by these great beings in the woods and by the spirits that were present. I plucked two hairs from my head and offered one to each of the great trees and proceeded on my walk. I was guided out from the woods, across the field and past a huge stand of bushes filled with blackberries. I've never seen so many ripe, luscious berries, and I couldn't resist having breakfast right there in the field. I continued my walk, now moving deep into woods that looked much like a primeval forest. I would not have been surprised to see a brontosaurus munching on ferns and the moss that hung from the tall tree limbs. I slowly made my way down the side of a beautiful creek bank on old worn slippery steps. I was reminded of the creek behind the pasture and woods at Grandma Twylah's house on the Cattaraugus Reservation outside of Buffalo, N.Y.
Many years ago Gram sent me to the river to spend the day in search of healing stones. She gave me very specific instructions on how to find them and told me to bring them back for her inspection. She taught me to notice how many sides the stones had, told me what their numerology was, and how to listen to the message hidden deep inside their ancient bodies. She then told me to sit outside all night by a small fire circle that was partially hidden and encircled by dense trees. I sat with the stones, my elder teachers, under the moon and a night sky filled with more stars than I had ever seen. I listened to the stones as they gave me their wisdom teachings. I now found myself gathering healing stones in the manner that Gram had taught me so many years ago. I felt like a happy child gathering the stones and listening to those that called me, joyfully hopping barefoot in the creek.
Suddenly I had a sensation that I often have when something wants to download into my conscious awareness from another realm. I closed my eyes and stood still in the middle of the creek - for how long I don't know. It was then I saw a large wheel of light and a blue star. The blue star was pulsing and I heard a voice that instructed me to build a new type of healing / transformation wheel. I asked if it was a medicine wheel and was told "yes", but it was not to be called a medicine wheel. It was to be called the Blue Star Shamanic Wheel of Transformation." I was told it was representative of the Aquarian Shaman Energy that has been birthing onto the planet through Venus Rising and other organizations and individuals. It would serve as a guiding path to deeper healing and transformation and provide a map for the cycles of change to many people who would come to walk, meditate, pray, or do ceremony within the wheel. Once familiar with the wheel individuals can hold it in their awareness through imagination and receive the same effects.
I became very excited as I returned to my outer awareness and couldn't wait to get back to my husband Brad and share all that had happened on my unexpected early morning vision quest. I told him about my morning and he too became excited. We realized that we wanted to bring this message to our group that, synchronistically, happened to be here for our once-a-year training on the five cycles of change – "The Alchemy of Transformation." We asked for and were given permission for our group to build the first Blue Star Wheel here at Still Meadows.
I then returned to my room to prepare for the morning Shamanic Breathwork ™ Journey. I uncharacteristically decided to quickly call my home phone to see if there were any messages - something I usually do at the end of the day while traveling. There on the voice mail was an urgent message to call Grandma Twylah's son and daughter-in-law, Bob and Lee. My heart raced as I shakily called and learned of Gram's passing. While I spoke with Lee, it slowly dawned on me that it was Gram Twylah who had awakened me in the wee hours before dawn and called me to the elder trees and the elder stones in the creek. She always spoke so lovingly and respectfully of the trees, the stones, the creek beds and the animals. I realized the grief I had been feeling was deeply connected to her passing and the inner knowing that all things and beings must eventually pass from this reality into the Great Mystery. It was her voice that had come to me, along with the voices of the great trees, to reassure me and guide me back to my renewed vision and heart, and my commitment to the path I chose – or perhaps I should say chose me - so long ago.
It was her words that reminded me to live in trust, standing tall, and to have the courage to speak the words of truth and living wisdom learned from the cycles of change and from the sacred experiences of life. It was her voice that reminded me that there is a well worn spiral path from this reality to all other dimensions and from Mother Earth to the Great Star Nations. And it was her voice that spoke to me as I stood in the sacred waters of Richardson Creek among the ancient stone Grandmothers and Grandfathers. It was she who instructed me to create a wheel that would incorporate the best of the old ways with the new teachings that are emerging as we enter the age of the Aquarian Shaman.
Lee told me that a ceremony was to be held for Gram. It would happen while our group here would be doing a Shamanic Breathwork ™ Journey. I told her we would call in the energies here and that we would connect our ceremony for Grandma Twylah with theirs.
In circle I tearfully shared the news of Grandma Twylah's passing and my bitter sweet shamanic experiences of the morning. The group was profoundly touched and went into their breathwork journeys carrying with them the magic of all that had happened.
Much to my chagrin we could not, no matter how many times we tried, get our pre recorded music to play. We couldn't get any cd to play on the CD player, except one – "Sacred Spirit", the only Native American music cd that we had brought with us. Every time Brad hit "disc 1" on the cd player it would flip to "disc 4" and start to play "Sacred Spirit." We even took it out of the CD player and tried other cds in the disc 4 slot, but nothing else would play! Finally I looked at Brad and told him, "Nothing is going to work, except 'Sacred Spirit.' Gram is here. A few minutes ago we invited her spirit to join us for our breathwork and this is the music SHE WANTS US TO PLAY FOR HER!" Sure enough - as soon as Brad put "Sacred Spirit" back into slot number 4 it played just fine and so it is the cd we used for the entire session. Almost everyone in the group had Grandma Twylah visit them during their breathwork journey with some sort of message - some quite humorous I might add - all deeply meaningful.
Magic also happened back in North Carolina at Venus Rising and the Isis Cove Community. I had quickly called my son Casey to let him know of Gram's passing and asked him to let the folks there in our community know about the 2 pm EDT ceremony. Below is an the email I received later that day from Ruby Falconer, Isis Cove community member and Venus Rising colleague.
I did get your message regarding Grandma Twylah's passing. Kathy, Windraven, Karen and I gathered on the deck at 2 pm to hold space for her. Just as we were gathering it started to thunder. We smudged, and then stood together, holding hands, and each of us gave thanks to her for the work she did while on this earth and for the gifts she gave to us. None of us had met her in person, but we all feel indebted to her for the teachings she's given us through you, through the Medicine Cards and the Sacred Path Cards and in so many ways. We thanked her sincerely from our hearts. We thanked her for the Wolf Clan, and I told her that we are the Aquarian Wolf Clan - that we are the ones who will carry her teachings into the new age and that we will not let her teachings die. We thanked her for Isis Cove and told her that we believed that Isis Cove exists because of her and the teachings she gave you. We thanked her for everything she's given to us through you. Kathy pointed out that we had chosen, without thinking about it, to gather on the deck, where the Wise Wolf Women had gathered. And then we gave her a really big wolf howl. And Star Wolf, it poured rain, and the skies cracked open in huge peals of thunder as though the Thunder Beings were welcoming her soul and acknowledging our prayers. It truly was amazing.
We felt your presence and everyone in Portland, and we felt the presence of other Wolf Clan members - many of whom we do not know in person - scattered all across this country and the world. And it poured rain.
Later on that day Casey called and told me about the miracle of the rain, which had not been predicted in western North Carolina. Our area has been experiencing a drought for many weeks. He was convinced that Gram Twylah had something to do with it. Casey said, "Mom, right at the time all the ceremonies were happening on both sides of the country for Gram, I went out to look up at the sun and send Grandma Twylah and you some energy. These huge clouds gathered. It thundered, the sky broke open and it poured rain like crazy. Then the clouds dispersed and the sun came back out almost as suddenly as it disappeared and it has been sunny ever since." In his words, "It was really amazing. "
Since then the emails and phone calls have been pouring into Venus Rising. The magic is still continuing here at Still Meadows Retreat Center where we are in deep process as we journey with the cycles of change and the Shamanic Breathwork ™ Process.
I must close now as I go to teach again this afternoon and I will speak about the wheel that is permeating my every thought and vision. Gram woke me up again early this morning - this time I recognized her immediately. She came to tell me more about the Blue Star Wheel and how she wants us to build it. She, as always, has very specific instructions as to how it is to be done.
I have always felt a strong heart connection with Gram, but now it is as if we have gone from dial up to wireless! Yes, I feel the deep sadness of her passing from this physical plane. I simultaneously feel a deepening of her love and wisdom in my heart that I know will continue to grow. Grandma Twylah and her vision, her spirit, her teachings and her magic is alive and well in the hearts of all those who love her. Those of us she called her "wolfies", her family members, students, friends and Wolf Clan Soul Family members who were fortunate enough to have heard her coyote laughter and see the twinkle of her eyes can say we truly have been blessed.
For now I must go and teach and I know Grandma is close by whispering in my ear and I will tell the group some of her favorite words. Don't forget to trust ... Remember Trust has an "us" in it … We weren't meant to do it alone ... So All For One - One For All!
In loving Memory of Grandmother Twylah.
Your Grateful Granddaughter,
I have known for a long time that I am one heck of a manifester and that anything I put my mind to and work diligently towards I can create. I fearlessly and courageously tackle whatever calls to me from my inner voice, with a “Yes, I/We Can” attitude that would even impress Obama.
The place in consciousness that I have not been fully aware of, is the place of creating from Source! Don’t misunderstand me, I always seek my higher power’s will for what ever I bring into manifestation, but I often forget to allow the flow of the universe take charge. My modus operandi, is to get the download from spirit and then take charge and make it happen, which was all good and fine when I was a younger soul, of 30, 40 and heck even 50. However as I approached my 56th birthday, I found I needed to reconsider some of my assumptions and attitudes about how things need to get done and seeker a gentler way.
Right after the Wise Wolf Women’s Council, in April of last year, I realized I had a serious spider bite, and became quite ill with a high fever, nausea, chills, and a large red welt about the size of a grapefruit in the shape of an odd shaped heart on my inner left thigh. It was encircled and outlined with a thin white line, which the Internet said often indicated a black widow spider bite. Interestingly enough I had a dream the night before I discovered the bite about a beautiful spider with bright black shiny eyes, who told me that in Ancient Egypt she was called Neith and that she was the original creator, the One Source of the universe. She explained to me that everything in creation came from within her magical body and she birthed creation with almost no effort. She opened her womb and out poured this magnificent web of creation, which she spun into a cohesive web and then promptly laid back in her web as if it were a big cosmic hammock in the sky and dreamed what ever she desired, would soon enter into her web. She showed me how she easily captured her food and thumped off any offending or undesirable materials, such as bad tasting bugs from her web with a flick of one of her legs and how the rain would form droplets that ran like a gentle river along the strands of her masterfully built web into her open and thirsty spider mouth. If the weather became too tumultuous, she simply pulled the strands back into her belly and sauntered off to a safer bush or cave and rolled out her beautiful web of plenty once again. I must say Neith was a real inspiration to me and although she was somewhat of an intimidating presence at first in my dream I was certainly drawn to her wisdom teachings and very grateful and honored that she chose me to share them with.
So you can imagine my surprise to find that I had most likely been bitten the very night she had entered into my dream. Neith’s message hit or should I say bit me hard and I have been paying attention to her wisdom ever since her visit. Since that time, I have had an awakening that shows me, that while I am a powerful manifester , I have been using way too much of my life force energy in birthing my creations. This is an old pattern for me; one I come by naturally from family or origin and cultural impressions and one that I am more than ready to be release into a higher octave.
So, I have turned my awareness and willingness to see the pattern more clearly than ever before and do what is necessary to let it go.
Within a very short period of time, I could feel the shift within my own being and my outer surroundings made the shift too.
Many new creations are in the pipeline here at Isis Cove/Dove Mountain and Venus Rising ready to be born. Next month as we are a little further along I will be making several announcements about several very exciting developments already in the works. Until then, watch for Neith’s magical teachings in the dreamtime and know that we all have access to this divine source of creation, it is as she said, “all inside of each one of us”!
With Love, Gratitude and Magic,
Monday, February 2, 2009
Venus Rising founders and directors, Star Wolf and Brad Collins, founded the Isis Cove community in 2003. Their long held vision of spiritual community has manifested in these magical mountains. Isis Cove is both an intentional community and the home of the Venus Rising Institute for Shamanic Healing Arts.
Isis Cove sits on 23 acres of unspoiled land in the beautiful blue mountains of western North Carolina. This land once belonged to the Cherokee, and is blessed by the spirits of the native people who lived here. The land is graced by a creek and a pond full of fish. Many animals make their home here, including foxes, opossums, raccoons, squirrels, rabbits, lizards, snakes, turtles, hawks, owls, wild turkeys, crows, woodpeckers, turkey vultures and a variety of songbirds. Bear tracks have been seen high up on the mountain and we sometimes hear coyotes howling and the cry of a bobcat.
Currently thirteen people live at Isis Cove full time. Several others have purchased lots; some will be living here part time while others plan on moving to the community at some time in the future. Several other members of our soul family live on land surrounding Isis Cove. Some people, finding themselves in transition, have come to live at or near the Cove for a period of time. Community life shared with like-minded individuals is part of the benefit of living at Isis Cove.
The Isis Cove Retreat Center hosts many workshops and retreats sponsored by Venus Rising, including S.H.I.P., the Shamanic Healing Initiatory Process, Soul Return, Shakti and the Shaman, Egyptian Mystery School Teachings, the Shamanic Priest Process, created by Venus Rising co-director, Bradford Collins, and Shamanic Egyptian Astrology, co-created by Venus Rising Staff Astrologer and Student Supervisor, Ruby Falconer, along with Star Wolf. Venus Rising is in the planning stages of creating Blue Star University - stay posted for more information. The Isis Cove Retreat Center also hosts many workshops offered by our soul friends, including the Shamanic Priestess Process, created by community member Anyaa McAndrew, and The Imagination Process, founded by Wendyne Limber.
The Isis Retreat House is a quaint and comfortable four bedroom house with three full bathrooms, a large kitchen, a sun room, a hot tub and an inviting front porch perfect for relaxing on warm summer nights. Near to the house and under the pine trees is an 800 square foot deck perfect for exercise and/or meditation. The Art Temple is open to all who visit the Cove and provides a comfortable and quiet space for personal time. There are areas for walking, enjoyable nature spots and inviting outside spaces for meditation and quiet contemplation.
Most Venus Rising workshops are held in the Sanctuary, a beautifully appointed free-standing building that is a comfortable and secure space for soul journeyers to explore their inner landscape. The Sanctuary is the spiritual home of Venus Rising and the location for most of our rituals and ceremonies.
Isis Cove is a special place. The land is alive and the spirits are active. The vortexes are strong and the air is rich with magic. The Cove spins a cocoon of safety and comfort whereby all who visit may sink into their hearts and open to the call of their soul.
The Sanctuary and the Isis Cove Retreat House are available for workshops and retreats. Call 828-631-2305 for more information, or visit: www.shamanicbreathwork.org
- ► 2012 (47)
- ► 2011 (78)
- ► 2010 (69)
- ▼ February (4)
Star Wolf's Welcome
My journey in life has been a spiral path of wholeness that continues to move through cycles of change taking me through many symbolic death and rebirth experiences, which I refer to as “shamanic portals of transformation.” I have learned more than I ever thought possible through a process I will share with you in my future writings, called the Shamanic Breathwork™ process, and the five initiations process called S.H.I.P. Once I have made sense of the lessons on my path and discovered the bigger picture, I am ready to pass on and share both my stumblings and my leaps along the way. In my own spiritual quest, I have always appreciated most those who shared their struggles and victories in an authentic way. That will be my humble attempt within the context of this blog.
I believe that we are all indigenous to this earth. I respect all my relations, whether they be human, animal, plant, mineral, visible or invisible ones. We are all related by the great web of life and sent here from the great beyond. Everything we say and do touches all parts of this magnificent web of creation. If I treat myself or anyone else unfairly, we are all affected in some way. Fortunately, the converse is true, as well. I am not perfect. If I am honest and have humility, I can admit that I will make mistakes as I seek to further evolve my conscious awareness. I can also make living amends by striving to change my negative thoughts and behaviors, and live from a more open-hearted connection to others and to myself. I have learned over time that all the changes I seek in the outer world must begin by looking within myself first. I have also learned that it is imperative that I have the courage to be honest with myself and to look at the “shadow” side of my personality. When I have had the courage to truly know myself better, the light and the dark, I have found the inner strength to change my life and shape-shift myself into the light of my true soul’s image.
From time to time I will share different programs and events that are being offered through my non profit organization (Venus Rising Institute for Shamanic Healing Arts) in my blog, as well as photos, videos and teachings, etc. But the main purpose of this blog is to provide an outlet to share the inner musings of my shamanic spirit and journey, and to hear yours as well. I look forward to connecting with all of you who intuitively know that you, too, are a valuable part of the shamanic process of conscious co-creation and evolution on the planet at this time. We each have a role to play and a soul purpose in the drama unfolding in our world today. Together we can create a better place for all beings on earth to live and leave a powerful legacy for those who are yet to come.
I believe we will all be remembered by future generations for the choices we make during this time of huge evolutionary change. In the words of the wonderful poem, “Summer Day,” by Mary Oliver, “what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?”
In Love, In Service, In Gratitude,
Feb 2nd 2009